the unknown is scary

Hello to all.. or to ONE.

I'm not sure who reads this but about one person. Either way I am here to update you on the past month of my life and thoughts....ENJOY!

It's another week because I had writer's block. Not only that a lot of things have changed since when I first was started writing this. I'm going to try to continue and I'm sorry ahead of time if this isn't as well written as my last one. I have a lot of mixed up, rambled thoughts flying around in my melon (aka brain) right now.

So.. first things first. I'm HAPPY right now. Not that I wasn't happy before. I just think a few things have happened within this past month to make me realize what I have and that I shouldn't take it for granted and that I'm really lucky. I have great friends who are always supportive, giving me great advice, and most importantly always fun to be around! I love where I just moved to! My family is awesome and they are always there for me no matter how bad my luck is and/or even if I am the daughter who usually learns things the hard/long way :) I love my boyfriend! I usually miss him when he isn't with me and most importantly I have realized that having fun and being myself is the most important part of our relationship.

Blah blah! Enough of all the sappy talk! For the past 6 weeks I have been training for my 2010 Disney marathon. I have never ran with a purpose and I finally have a new found respect for those who train and the importance of each workout. Not only that you feel horrible if you don't complete a workout or if you miss even one. I started off my first two weeks just increasing my base mileage and now I have a variety of tempo workouts, intervals, hills, and long runs. I have also realized on the rest days that doesn't mean just sit at home and be a vegetable. So to keep myself from doing that I started cycling again 2-3 days a week. I'm not really looking forward to riding in the cold, but I'm going to try my best to suck it up this year. I am however excited about my training and what I have left to do because I have never really been one to stick with things. I usually get bored and move on to the next thing, but this is one thing I really have to train for because 1) I want to make it and 2) I'm terrified of injuries and 3) I wanna do this for myself. I want to think Iron Joe for helping me train for this because I would be so lost without him! Also, for the RECORD this was my sister's idea! :)

"The unknown is scary".....Things have happened in the past 2 weeks that have definitely thrown me for a loop. I know things are going to change drastically within the next few months and I really don't think I'm ready for it. I'm at a point though where I really have no control and wished things were thought out more before it got to this point. I know everything happens for a reason and I know what is meant to be will and what isn't won't but it's just scary to think everything is about to get tested. With all that said... I will have to update you more when I find out the END result. No matter the outcome... I'm still gonna try to be as positive as I can be!

On a last happy note: I have a new JOB and I love it! It's not teaching, but it's right there neck and neck with what I want to do in the long run! I'm excited and I hope everything works out! Also, my sister came to visit and it was so good seeing her. I can't wait till one day when we both live on the coast together with Davey Crockett pants :)

In the process of change

Do you remember when you first started writing? I think I started writing in diaries in elementary school about my friends, boy crushes, or when my sister would pull my hair. As I got a little older I wrote in journals about things a little more significant like my swim team, trips/camps, or things going on in my life such as moving my senior year. I even used to write stories based off Goosebumps and RL Stine. There has been a time span of about 7 years where I quit writing altogether. Why?.... I don't really have an answer for that. I do know now that I am in a transitional period of my life and I have had more than a lot of thinking to do. So that's what I've decided to start doing... blogging......therapeutic none the less.

Right now in my life there is a lot of change that seems to be happening at once. My roommate of 4 years is leaving at the end of next week. Not just to another state but to South Korea!!! We don't really hang out all that much and I do complain that at times he gets on my last nerves but in reality he is really important to me. I can honestly say we know more about each other’s thoughts processes, mannerisms, and behaviors just about the same as my family if not more which is scary. I think it's starting to hit me all at once and I really am going to miss you Davey Crockett pants. You moving though seem to make more sense than most things that I can explain right now and it is YOU to go out and travel, seek new opportunities, and be as spontaneous as ever. And like I said Megatron, Murphy, and I will be sending you weekly if not daily reminders of us so you don't forget about us! Thank you for putting up with me…. oh and you’re welcome too! Hahhahha

Since I have lived in Houston and officially out on my own I have lived at 3 different places around the Houston area. I am going to move for my 4^th and possibly last time in Houston to live with my friend Melissa. We are both excited about the move and I’m glad to be living in yet another different area of Houston. It will be a new lifestyle and I’m nervous and excited at the same time. The location is fun, the people are young, the prices are reasonable, and the pool is awesome!! (Of course I would throw that in there.)

The biggest change yet is my career. I have always been the type of person to say it doesn’t matter what type of career you have as long as you are happy, but the older you get the reality sinks in and you realize that you have to also be able to financially support yourself. Luckily, I found a career path of my dreams as an elementary teacher. I do know that no matter what I will always have a passion for coaching and teaching swim lessons. Teaching never feels like a job and is more than rewarding. I am grateful for the children I have had an opportunity to teach and to the impacts I made and to the parents who have done nothing but be supportive and appreciative of the time I have swam with their children. I want to also thank the parents who are seeking me out after I left. Here is a quote from one of my swimmers that really touched me:

"You are one of the best teachers I've ever run into my whole life. You can read everyone's different backgrounds and cater your instructions to them. You helped many people overcome their fear of water just after a few lessons.”- T.

I have learned a lot over the past few years about teaching, children, and about myself while working at Swim Jim. I have definitely grown and matured and learned to speak up and for myself. I have also learned that I have areas for improvement that I am willing to work on. I am thankful for meeting best friends out of working there, the opportunity to teach the best children and meet great parents, and for the lessons learned. I have realized that as much as I loved what I did it was more than time for me to move on. So that’s what I have done and I’m on way to becoming an elementary school teacher! Keep your fingers crossed that I get a job!