the unknown is scary

Hello to all.. or to ONE.

I'm not sure who reads this but about one person. Either way I am here to update you on the past month of my life and thoughts....ENJOY!

It's another week because I had writer's block. Not only that a lot of things have changed since when I first was started writing this. I'm going to try to continue and I'm sorry ahead of time if this isn't as well written as my last one. I have a lot of mixed up, rambled thoughts flying around in my melon (aka brain) right now.

So.. first things first. I'm HAPPY right now. Not that I wasn't happy before. I just think a few things have happened within this past month to make me realize what I have and that I shouldn't take it for granted and that I'm really lucky. I have great friends who are always supportive, giving me great advice, and most importantly always fun to be around! I love where I just moved to! My family is awesome and they are always there for me no matter how bad my luck is and/or even if I am the daughter who usually learns things the hard/long way :) I love my boyfriend! I usually miss him when he isn't with me and most importantly I have realized that having fun and being myself is the most important part of our relationship.

Blah blah! Enough of all the sappy talk! For the past 6 weeks I have been training for my 2010 Disney marathon. I have never ran with a purpose and I finally have a new found respect for those who train and the importance of each workout. Not only that you feel horrible if you don't complete a workout or if you miss even one. I started off my first two weeks just increasing my base mileage and now I have a variety of tempo workouts, intervals, hills, and long runs. I have also realized on the rest days that doesn't mean just sit at home and be a vegetable. So to keep myself from doing that I started cycling again 2-3 days a week. I'm not really looking forward to riding in the cold, but I'm going to try my best to suck it up this year. I am however excited about my training and what I have left to do because I have never really been one to stick with things. I usually get bored and move on to the next thing, but this is one thing I really have to train for because 1) I want to make it and 2) I'm terrified of injuries and 3) I wanna do this for myself. I want to think Iron Joe for helping me train for this because I would be so lost without him! Also, for the RECORD this was my sister's idea! :)

"The unknown is scary".....Things have happened in the past 2 weeks that have definitely thrown me for a loop. I know things are going to change drastically within the next few months and I really don't think I'm ready for it. I'm at a point though where I really have no control and wished things were thought out more before it got to this point. I know everything happens for a reason and I know what is meant to be will and what isn't won't but it's just scary to think everything is about to get tested. With all that said... I will have to update you more when I find out the END result. No matter the outcome... I'm still gonna try to be as positive as I can be!

On a last happy note: I have a new JOB and I love it! It's not teaching, but it's right there neck and neck with what I want to do in the long run! I'm excited and I hope everything works out! Also, my sister came to visit and it was so good seeing her. I can't wait till one day when we both live on the coast together with Davey Crockett pants :)